Wanted to write something for a long time now but I wasn't taking out time as such. Now, traveling to Mumbai and waiting at Bangalore airport for flight - I did get some time to jolt down few points and give some updates and I am out of words and may be tired or what I don't know.
Small update - I finished a coursera certification course on pricing of options using mathematical models. I have partially received financial aid for GAN - specialization and I will be focusing on that for few days or a week or two before moving back to finance.
I am not mentioning details here - but remember what you went through past few months and where you are now. Be relaxed - focused and do use meditation and visualization a lot along with prayers and be grateful for everything. Losses - failures - part and parcel of life.
Focus on discipline - regular - everyday - day-in and day-out. You own your life. Compounding works - in exercise - money making or work or wherever. Remember these days when you going through tough time and how you overcame all the doubts and difficulties. Pay attention to continuous improvement.
Remember how you restarted running and skipping and started on journey of weight loss. I am 80 kg now - was once 88 and 4-5 years back I was 70ish. You were desperate to move to Mumbai and remember how you took small and impactful decision that helped you to move to Mumbai. If you could do back then - you can do it now as well and forever.
You are persistent and have an attitude of never giving up. You need to first have a goal and not deviate from it. May be take sometime to choose a goal but once it is fixed - I know you can have it. So here the issue is choosing a goal and having proper reason or meaning in pursuing the goal. Most of the time I half heartedly put my mind on the goal coz of external factors and then I didn't complete it. But remember Stress Analysis in IIT, marathon running, triathlon, trading and what not.
Secondly - somewhat repeated one - you need to know you have everything to be great at any point in time no matter the obstacle. You have all the ingredients in a perfect mix to be successful. I am sure you are 1000 times more successful than when you wrote this - but you still may be doubting yourself or have somewhat negative attitude a bit. Smash everything and keep pushing and achieving.
Stoicism reading is good too but sometimes it does make you negative but it does have some wonderful ways to live life. Reading BhagwatGita was the best thing you did - along with Hanuman Chalisa and developing or further strengthening faith in God and Universe and Almighty.
I am damn sure you are surprised with abundance and happiness life has given you - you always aimed low or may be you thought you aimed high but life had much more than that higher aim too. I am happy for you - for you health, wealth and abundance. You have been blessed with lovely wonderful kind hearted people in your life and you eventually took great care of them. I am glad you did that.
